I have been away from my blog and my writing spree for some time now. It has mainly to do with the fact that I have been busy with my coaching sessions, psychology classes online and the major move to Singapore that happened recently. While things are still settling down in this strange and new land for me, something happened recently that made me want to pen down some thoughts.
A coaching client of mine was not able to commit to the time slot of the sessions and was continually postponing our sessions. While texting with her on the phone, I felt the need to motivate her to make it happen if she really wanted to take it forward and towards that goal I said to her, “It’s your choice and I wish you all the success in making it happen. Choose yourself”. My client’s reaction let me know that I had touched a nerve because she responded saying that everyone wants to choose themselves and that no one really wants to ignore themselves or keep themselves last.
This whole incident made me think about this issue a lot. A barrage of questions flooded my mind.
- Do we always want to choose ourselves?
- What makes us not choose ourselves every time?
- Is choosing oneself, always right?
- Who decides when it is right and when not?
- What are the compulsions that make us choose someone or something else above ourselves?
- What happens when we choose ourselves every time?
- What happens when we don’t choose ourselves?
Is choosing yourself over anyone else always right?
Yes, it is! And it is right all the time. You have one life and that is the only life that you get to live. In fact, your own life is the only life you can do something about. Another person’s life is not yours to live, and they are free to make the decisions that make them happy.
Even in the cases where it seems almost devilish to choose yourself like in the case of your child versus you, you must choose yourself if there is a conflict. The reason is simple. If you don’t choose yourself, you are ultimately going to be a miserable slob. The very reason why you chose someone else gets defeated and it ends up being a lose-lose game.
If absolutely required, maybe you should choose a middle path if you can arrive at one. Choose a situation where you and the other person can both be happy. If you are lucky, you should be able to find such a mid-path solution.
Why don’t we choose ourselves every time then?
If choosing yourself each time is the way to go and if that is the one road to happiness, then why is it that we don’t do it each time. There are many reasons why.
1. Guilt
One of the most common reasons why people are not able to choose themselves is that we are riddled with guilt; something that is ingrained in us from a very early start. We are unable to choose what makes us happy, move on to greener pastures or surpass other loved ones that probably are complaining about how miserable and tough their life is. Choosing oneself over a parent who may have been hurtful to us is something most of us will not be able to do because we have depended on them in the past for survival. Is this reason enough to not live your life to the maximum capacity that you can?
Guilt is society’s way of making sure that the successful and happy people carry along those who are not able to move ahead themselves. I am not proposing that you stamp those in your way while moving forward or hurt others along the way. But should you feel obliged to carry them along if your own individual feeling does not permit it?
2. Change in Identity
Another reason why we don’t choose ourselves is because it disrupts the way we think about ourselves. There is a comfort in knowing yourself and knowing the way in which people think about us. In fact, this comfort also extends to negative impressions that you or other people may have about you. For example, if you have been known to be a loner or melancholy person, you may be able to find it tough to become social or stay happier most of the time.
Sudden change in your own identity about something you feel you have known about yourself for a long time can be unnerving. How can I suddenly become a happy person? How can I just start becoming so social? It will look and feel so weird. The fact that people perceive you in a certain way also makes it more difficult to bring about that change, even when you want to.
3. Letting down Defenses
Many self-sabotaging habits that we have are created over time to defend ourselves from pain. Heart-broken people (and not just the romantic kinds) tend to keep themselves from experiencing close relationships. They may build a wall around themselves that can keep happiness, human connection and love at a distance. Letting go of such habits that are harmful can be a scary proposition even when you know that these are hurting you.
4. Inertia
A lot of people who have always understood the importance of choosing themselves do not fall into this trap. In fact, their journey may be an opposite one where they need to learn to be empathetic. However, for those who do not instinctively know how to choose themselves find it difficult to do so due to sheer inertia. Others expect them to behave in a certain way, and they have been behaving in a certain way all this time. Pushing back and resurfacing as a new person who makes their own choices for their own happiness can sometimes shock everyone around. The sheer magnanimity of the task lends to an inertia that continues till the time you get the strength to push back!
5. The Right Thing
making choices according to the rules or general trend that is considered right in the culture or society you are from is easy. You are looked upon as a conscientious person who is level-headed and knows how to take mature decision. Heavens forbid if you have dreams that are different from what the culture considers acceptable. Choosing yourself has been branded as being selfish in most societies around the world and that is the reason why we feel uncomfortable doing something that our heart desires which may go against the general dictates.
What happens when you don’t choose yourself?
If you are reading this post and identify with it, then you hardly need to be told what happens when we do not choose ourselves. You know it already. While it may be easier in the short run, not choosing yourself over and over again (a repetitive pattern you will most probably find yourself getting into) can only create one thing – a miserable you!
What happens when you choose yourself?
In one simple word – happiness! With a caveat that you understand that choosing yourself is what you owe this life that you have been gifted with. It is your responsibility to make the best of this lovely gift that nature has given you and not get bogged down by artificial elements that force, coerce or subtly nudge you into something else.
So, here’s my wish for all of you reading this. May you have the insight to understand that choosing yourself is not selfish – it is your duty to this gift of life! May you have the strength to choose yourself each and every time and live with what follows bravely. For while you may have to face challenges, you will be one happy person while going through those!
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Very well put. You have probably covered all the popular reasons why people hesitate to choose what they think is best for them.
An ant on the hand thinks that we are the hand. An ant at far off distance understands us better than the former. When the moment of choice comes, we are the former ant. Outsiders, are the farther ants. They always have different, fresh and birds view kind of outlook for our situation. We, being in the moment of choosing, pollute the very discriminative faculty by gauging results as per our limited power to project into future. Self decisions have more probability to lead to sad states, for this exact reason. Ofcourse we need to choose, but only after considering due fresh opinions.
Totally agree. The view from within is fairly limited and subjective too, often riddled with emotions. Which is why it is better to know that choosing what makes you happy is always the best choice in the long run…however tough and selfish or non conformist it seems.
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Hi, welcome back to blogging! I hope all is well.
Coming to the blog post, a well-known example: Before cleaning the utensil, if we pour pure milk, it spoils. Same happens with an untrained mind. How many choices of our friends and family members do we see going wrong? Ofcourse, right or wrong and good or bad are relative, but I am speaking interms of at least momentary happiness aimed at the choice.
Let us breakdown. 1) Choice – what is it? It is two kinds a) one that is momentarily acted b) one that is acted by taking some thought. When some one tries to hit us or Rob us, self defense is impulsive act. This is ofcourse choices by us, but by the invoulantary us. But decisions like choosing Career, life partner etc we take time and put brain into work. 2) What shapes a choice? – given a situation, one person chooses to react diff from others whtr it is 1a or 1b. Why? (I think you answered this in this post, but I am going to a finer point). 3) Is there an art of choosing?
We, by default, are born and learn from surroundings as we grow. Our choices strongly depend on this (as well as past lives and karma but for the moment let’s not consider them, because topic will be deep as a forest). Now, did we not listen to others as we grew? If foundation of our choice is by listening to others, how can we help not to listen as the building of choices grows?
I would say, what is right is, Choose according to discrimination (in cases 2), for 1 does not has much time to think anyway) by considering others’ opinions.
But, if we were to stick the way you put, i.e., self choosing, we must own the results of our choices and be ready to accept any kind of end product. When people choose by themselves and something goes wrong, they tend to go into depression more than when the suggestion was from outsider as they can mentally blame others and be happy then.
So, 3rd point, art of choosing needs to be learned by properly understanding the true nature of one’s self as well as the nature of life.
But for above fine points, a big and beautiful article you have written. Cheers! All the best for your new saga at Singapore!
Very interesting. Loving it. Yes one needs to understand the nature of self and nature of life as part of learning the art of choosing. It needs to be without guilt and a firm belief that choosing oneself is always right. Learning to listen to ones heart is always the best way to go in such matters…because our senses are but like the ant that considers us the hand when it is on the hand…our senses have limited perception!
Hehe you really digested the example. Glad to see a fast grasper! True that!.
Life is beautiful